Learning and Changing

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Youtube is filled with AMAZING artist. We are at a time in history where you can go online and find amazing artist to do any kind of work for not that much money. There illustrators, digital and traditional artist all giving online courses or just letting you watch how they do what they do. I can be overwhelming for sure and for everyone buyers, fans and artist.

So, I’ve kinda gone back to school, well, virtually. Every night I choose a subject and I find a teacher. I pull out the iPad and do my work. A few weeks ago I drew hands all night, cartoon, real, exaggerated. And for the rest of that week when I would doodle, It was hands. then a week of feet. then a week of eyes. All the time mixing in; spray can technics, Liquitex media how-to, sketchbook reviews, character studies. and in the end I found that I have created nothing (well, very little).

The side effect of trying to improve one’s self is the realization of where your skills really are on a scale of 1-10. When I was just painting to enjoy the fun of creation, or to convey a feeling or emotion, I was less concerned with the balance or proportions. I want to create, so I did. And sure, it wasn’t bad. But after a summer of studies and youtube binge watching, I have more to pull from. My style is still sloppy and has a long way to go towards improving. But I think its about time to go back to the joy of creation and step away from the painful self-examination.

When ever aspiring artist came to me in the past for advice, I always say the same thing the Matt Sesow said to me, “Just paint!”